Tonight we spent a couple of hours packing up things in the nursery. Wow! That was hard! At one point, I just broke down sobbing when Chris asked me a simple question. At times, the emotion is just so raw -- like it all just happened yesterday.
In much of the literature I've read, the fact that we have lost not just our baby, but the hopes and dreams for a future with that baby is mentioned. That was very apparent to me this evening as I folded each little item of clothing. I'm sure Luke would have probably outgrown all of the newborn things by now. He would be 5 weeks old already. And all those diapers... I'm sure they would have been gone by now too.
We also walked over to the cemetary this afternoon. We were outside for nearly two hours in the georgous spring weather. I had imagined that I would be spending many hours outside with Luke in "the BOB" (our stroller) during these beautiful spring days -- I was so looking forward to that!
There are many things that we will miss out on because Luke was taken from us, but we know that we will always be Luke's parents, and nobody can take that from us.
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I am not sure if your blog is open to "strangers" or not, but Judy Brodock sent me your link and shared a bit of your story with me. (I attended Calendonia High School for one year many moons ago...)
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your loss! I know words do not take away the pain. I will be praying for you guys as you face each new day, one day at a time. I will pray for hope...and I'll pray for peace...the kind of peace that only God provides.