How to Honor You?

Dear Little Luke,
Oh how mommy misses you! Today, I have read many stories of other mommies like me - who have lost their precious little babies. These are amazing women who have told their stories to the world. Their faith in God is a true testament. I wonder if I am that strong? I want to be. I want to believe that you are safe and warm and happy with God, but I just don't know if I have that kind of faith right now. I often wonder, "Did God really know this would happen? Was it really His plan?" How can God's plan include taking you from us? We were so ready to take care of you. So ready to be your parents -- forever protecting you until our dying day. You were not supposed to leave this earth before us -- we were supposed to be the ones keeping you safe and warm and happy.

I see what other mommies have done to honor their babies and I wonder what I am to do? Lead me little Luke. Help me to find my way to honor you. I know this is just the beginning of a long road of grief and healing, but help me to find my voice to some how help others. Just like any mommy, I love you more and more every day. Little Luke, you will never be forgotten!